I no longer have the energy for meaningless friendships, forced interactions or unnecessary conversations. If we don’t vibrate on the same frequency there’s just no reason for us to waste our time. I’d rather have no one and wait for substance than to not feel someone and fake the funk.
I’d like to thank Paulo Coelho for being an inspiration to my current goal, that being, to listen to my heart (as corny as that sounds) and partake in activities that actually make me happy.
That being said, I want to make this Summer more than just the season in which I move out and live on my own for the first time. I want it to be the season I find myself, and enjoy that encounter. I want to take dancing classes and acting classes and be a part of something that I’ve put off because I’m lazy and I’ve given up on me. Even if dancing/acting is not my calling I can’t live my life wondering about something I never tried/ or put on eternal pause after I turned thirteen. I can’t live my life thinking that one day someone will pat my shoulder as I’m waiting in line at the grocery store, to tell me that I’m exactly what they’re looking for. That they can make my dreams come true! I need to make my dreams come true. Even though I don’t have a clear idea of what those dreams are, I at least am sure that being a student/receptionist is not one of them. So today I’ve made a promise to dedicate this Summer to me and my personal story (which I’m fucking ready to start)